February 2009
44 posts
Watchi’ve heard a lot of “what would you say to this person if you could?” kind of questions on these news interviews But this is hands-down the best answer I’ve ever heard (about mid-way through)
January 2009
52 posts
every star fall brought you to tears again
we are, so far from you
perfect
First show with the last band I’ll ever be in? Let’s just stop at “Killed It” for now 7: )
I suppose this one's for me and you...
i don’t know what i’ll dedicate the rest of these little white sunshine’s to
Ransom not(E)xpression
I miss you so bad Because I’m not okay But, never again, no never again they gave us two shots to the back of the head do you remember back when we met, you told me this gets harder well it did so long and goodnight
at the end of the world
…all the things that you never ever told me and all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Funny how the day always starts even when I’m afraid to 7: )
I don't plan on quitting...
…yet
but I have an increasing sense of anxiety whenever the name or topic of lightskylight comes up
in the past i’ve always been the guy to be with a girl and suddenly as it got a little more serious start to question things and become uncertain
and maybe that’s what this is
but the whole thing makes me a headaching nervous wreck whenever it comes up
I need to chill...
This is just a demo version I recorded while I was...
Couldn't you just pay her in cash this week?
How long are you gonna stick around? Hang to my bones so I can’t even shake it off I’m not dependent, I just don’t like giving up This is way worse than it looks How long is the drive cuz I’ve got a lot to say Windowed sanctuary we’ll assume no one can see us I’ll go til I run out of fuel I might not stop there. I’m down the hall while you’re...
I feel like complete and utter death….. But i get to play music with my three best friends so SOLID 7: )
your best shot at the worst time
every line i write, every line i write, every line i write, every line i write
in the purgatory of boy and man i’m laughing out loud “catch me catch me if you can” cuz i’ll never love as much as i’d like just a jealous boy breaking hearts with a mic
and a telephone wire from my heart to my brain I went home with a smile and swore i’d call again i’ll...
"Dear God...
…stay out of our way.”
Family Guy is hilarious.
But also oddly relevant.
the first time to hang out in weeks and you want to go see the unborn? Wtf? 7: )
No question about it i need to wear my chucks more often….. That feelings drifted out of life without them 7: )
"Oh Change, Will Come"
I’m making new words just to fit the feeling Send for help, nothing now can stop the reeling This cold air sunshine stands to make the best… Words will disappear and our ears will do the rest It’s not just about one heart, it’s marching to it’s beat Not the man on the sidewalk, its the people in the street Grown boys with dreams took bullets To take this on the road...
Took on more monsters yesterday
I’m putting you down Faster than you can come back up I’ve been squeezing my heart dry But it’s never enough I don’t believe the second act Stands as redeemer Best friends means forever Forever means a dreamer I’m a check that won’t cash Because I can’t stand to lose my appeal And I’m always the first to see potential Even when there’s no way...
Isn't it messed up, how I'm just dying to be him?
There is nothing in this universe that could remedy the total failure feeling I get anymore
I’m not anywhere near the person I want to be and I hate that on a level deeper than the hole in my chest (for reasons unexplained)
Redeem me Just dream me I’ll do the rest
New lsl song...
…just insane
It had me shaking and sick by the end, I threw up and yet all in all probably one of the most amazing experience I’ve been blessed with in my almost 21 years.
Completely fuckin stoked for you to hear it.
I hope you like it as much as I do, at least then I know you get it
monster residing in pit of my stomach please go
away 7: )
...like a bridge for your body.
Been three years now since Brand New was brand new to me.
I remember this cd Christi used to listen to all the time that was oddly appealing to me.
I remember the way I’d never heard anything like this in my life. I remember the way my metal/hardcore lovin’ heart withered into something better. I remember how “Guernica” made me wanna cry.
Ironically enough, “The...
I would never have believed in myself if you hadn’t first 7: )
The more you hate- the better I rate…..i’m gold and you’re blue what i say shines more than you could hope to 7: )
Dashboard-Come Vestibuls
We’ve only got one life to steer into the guardrail Metal kisses metal and the sparks are potential fires Here’s to a coming year of laughing at the commotion To contradict the last few years of screeching brakes We came to a stop So our breath would not But maybe… Our lungs are abusive spouses We don’t need them half as much as they need us I’m a drug, you’re...
fr th wn
it feels neat to have like developments brewing and things to look forward too
Team Nick is making a comeback before half-time
fr th wn
vampyrkids: get her a dildo
vampyrkids: so she can give me mine back
malllorieee: idk if theyre her thing though, ya know?
malllorieee: aw i bet youve been missing dan
vampyrkids: i was talking about caleb
{note: a couple years ago I told everyone I had a dildo named Dan after Dan Marsala from Story of the Year}
I believed in myself til my parents told me he...
in the purgatory of boy and man i’m laughing out loud, catch me catch me if you can i could never love half as much as I’d like just a jealous mess, breaking hearts with a mic
(breaking hearts with a mic) and a telephone wire from my heart to my brain I went home with a smile and swore I would call again I’ll never be as good as I think I am Cuz I don’t have time to be...
I really am a loose bolt of a complete machine 7: )
if i’m fucked up you’re to blame 7: )
whoa-oh-oh oh
…this is me smiling without you…
EDIT:
give me a reason to fall like gravity to us all …….. …….. (whoa OH oh) …….. (whoa OH oh) this is me smiling without you
RE-EDIT:
give me a reason to fall like gravity to us all one day the sun will rise on down and out learning to stand tall I’ll be fine (whoa OH oh) just give me time (whoa OH oh)...
ya know those pictures....
…the ones from old school Sesame Street where its like a group of humans and then one of the characters all posing for a picture?
What comes to mind is one of a black family all smiling with Elmo
Either way, every day I feel less and less like one of those people and more like one of those muppets
You complete me At least when you photograph well
EDIT: found some
In response to the video below
vampyrkids: ok im goin to bed
brandnewsunshine: don't lie you are going to touch yourself to the video! hahaha.
vampyrkids: either way im signing off here
What the world needs now is love sweet love- it’s the only thing that there’s just too little of….. 7: )
more of the same, and i forget my name
Footsteps and Shadows (…as I see them)
holding my breath for your next one daggers dangling from my eyes a pretty little baby girl gets her wings minds stuck on the screen fixed on making movie scenes lost my neck but i am trying to sing when you’re an artist you’re a cannibal and i’ll never die hungry Skipping parts unless they’re silver and gold I stopped painting...
never finished, never started
Footsteps and Shadows (…as he sees them)
slip slip slip away not a word that i could say like aeroplanes in hurricanes I’m caught from burning windows i am sending happy songs with happy endings you always said I write the best of what I’m not
Rewind to half-slept nights, races to count the city lights i would leave you on pause, promise me you’ll stay there til I’m...
...cuz I'm not making any sense.
vampyrkids: i feel bad for pete
vampyrkids: a lot
brandnewsunshine: why?
vampyrkids: he has that "personality" thing
vampyrkids: that I love wanting it but getting it is awful
vampyrkids: the more i read this kind of stuff the more i feel like pete fascinates me because i'm like him in those ways.
vampyrkids: do you know how much i adore attention
vampyrkids: the band stuff
vampyrkids: the parties
brandnewsunshine: yeah...i thought that when i was reading some of it.
vampyrkids: but at the same time...
vampyrkids: lol
brandnewsunshine: at the same time...? haha
vampyrkids: its awful
vampyrkids: smashing all the light bulbs because you're mad at yourself for being afraid of the dark
Team Captain
I have been running on something lower than empty for way too long. Too many late nights and “ah fuck it, I’ll sleep later” early mornings. It’s funny because I do this from time to time and then immediately swear to rectify the situation upon recovery. That said I have two days coming up that look like they may save my life. I’m really looking forward to THAT.
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Jack and Bill went up the hill to fetch a pale of water, Jack fell down and broke his crown and bill fucked him til he felt better 7: )
I can literally feel myself fuckin dying I swear to start anew from here soon as I’m better 7: )
They always bring up how you’ve changed… Fall Out Boy and specifically Pete Wentz often say things I simply GET
My heart is the kick drum and you are the beat… I’ve never sang a better song 7: )
Bill came back to work today… It’s amazing the effect one person can have on your entire outlook on the day 7: )
Training wheels fell off and I kept pedaling 7: )
Important music of 2008 (as pertains to me)
Lil Wayne “Tha Carter III” (changed hip-hop in my opinion) Coldplay “Viva La Vida: Death and All His Friends” (their first album to truly achieve what they’ve ALWAYS been capable of) The Cab “Whisper War” (easily my favorite cd of the year, these guys SHOULD be huge and 2009 could be their year) Radiohead “In Rainbows” (changed MUSIC in my...
I’m not crazy cuz I take the right pills… everyday 7: )
Having your world rocked the way Kid A does mine is something we all wait for and need 7: )
……but I think that it makes me spit up blood…… 7: )