The problem with putting on a show for the rest of the world is eventually you end up watching to see what happens just as much as everyone else.
I’m just as much a spectator as the rest of the world. And being in awe of something you’re in control is the most dangerous and wreckless thing you can choose to do with your time.
So at least I’ll write about it until I can’t anymore.
I can’t believe where things are now. The things that occurred between A and B are so terrific/terrifying and I still can’t make heads or tails. Part of the problem is the most I think about point A the more I realize it happened a lot further back than I once thought. And point B is infinite, it’s not where I’m at now because “now” is such an eye of the beholder-type quantity.
There’s too much data to compute all at once so I’m gonna feed the machine slow and steady and try and figure all this out.
Here goes…
